Oh, what a tough week. Made more onerous perhaps by the knowledge that I won't be seeing home for another week yet. Most days I'm worn out by noon, but still have to drag myself through another six hours or more of work. Tuesday and Wednesday were especially tough. I was so stressed and irritable that I was GROWLING at people and cursing everytime my phone rang and I almost snapped when the cops showed up at our jobsite Tuesday morning.
I think that once I get used to this level of stress, it won't be so exhausting. But this job really asks alot of me in areas where I'm weak. Don't ask an ADD kid to multi-task. There are so many people I have to communicate with and satisfy, so many immediate concerns to take care of, while at the same time planning ahead to meet their ridiculous schedule when we're already two weeks behind . . . it's maddening. It seems I only get any real work done after 5 pm, when enough of our mercenary corp of engineers have gone home for the day that the interruptions cease. But still, my To-Do list snowballs and rolls over from day to day.
The only reason I have enough time and energy to write an LJ post is because my bosses have left for the weekend. I dropped the last one off this afternoon and before his plane had even left the ground, I was already back at my hotel, in bed. I'll be working Saturday and Sunday, so it's not like I'll be playing hooky or anything while they're. But the prospect that my phone will be silent and I'll be left alone to work is reward enough. Hopefully I'll be able to get enough work done this weekend to put me a couple strides ahead of this scheduling juggernaut. If I could do that, the days would become much more bearable.
I don't like writing completely negative entries, so let me dig for a few nuggets; bright spots of this past week.
Well today, after finally getting lunch, I was driving through the big empty sand dunes of Fort Bliss. I had my mp3 player going. I got out to look at some things and noticed my black boots had turned yellow, from the pollen of the sage brush, which was in bloom following the recent rains. I was still comfortably cool from the truck's A/C so I could enjoy the bright sun and warmth. While I'm walking down the dirt road, "The Sunny Side of the Street" starts playing and I had to laugh. "In El Paso, everywhere is the sunny side of the street," I thought. Because yeah, there's an assload of sun here. It's like we're on the sun's front porch. It's like RIGHT there, all the time, in yo face. Yeah, everyone turns brown here.
Last night my boss treated some of us to dinner. He took us to a nice place where the cheapest entree was 17.99. I didn't know who was paying and I'm still in the red from that surprise trip back to Austin, so I ordered the most modest meal there. Everyone else had steak, since apparently they'd been informed that it was on the boss's dime. D'oh. I got cheesecake at least. I'd rather have spent those two hours talking with my girlfriend, or catching up on sleep, but it was refreshing to relax and be sociable with my superiors.
Yeah, it's been a tough week, but this weekend should provide a respite, making next week easier in comparison. Plus, next week I'll have an Austin weekend to look forward to, and that's one helluva carrot.