Posting out of boredom
Apr. 12th, 2011 06:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
astillarThe past 8 evenings I've kept myself occupied with cosplay work. I've run out/burnt out of that. Three more days/nights to go of working here in Nowhere, Texas. I'm drinking wine as fast as I can swallow it, which normally alters my stats enough that I'm easily entertained by next to nothing. And there's plenty of nothing here. ;) But tonight, wine ain't enough. I'm still plenty bored and listless. (God, why haven't I quit this job yet?)
Oh yeah, good news! After 10 days or so of having a defective left leg (see "Kyoto"), it's finally showing some signs of returning to (semi-)normalcy. I was really starting to worry, wracking my meager medical knowledge to try and determine what I'd done to myself. If I'd torn my muscle, it might take 2-4 weeks to heal. Separated a ligament? 1-2 months of agony. That numbness that I constantly feel, like part of my leg is perpetually asleep and in aching agony? Maybe that's nerve damage: permanent. Etc etc. Sure, I could still walk, and with a bit of mental fortitude against the pain, conceal my limp. But if it's permanent . . . heaven forbid!
Today, for the first time, there was no limp and no pain. To be honest, my knee still goes to 'yellow alert' occasionally, but it doesn't hit the panic button like it had been doing. I think I'll give it another week of light duty assignments. Then I'll try running again. I tried that last week to test myself and it simply didn't happen. Yes, mucho pain was to be had and even though I was willing to grit my teeth through that, there was still something PHYSICALLY preventing me from running. I might as well have had two peg legs at the Olympics' 100 meter dash. That's what got me worried, that I simply COULD NOT physically do this, despite all my bad-ass machismo.
So you can imagine what a huge relief it is to me to no longer be feeling that constant worrisome pain. I mean, I know it's cool for black dudes to walk with a limp, but for a white guy like me, that just makes me that much older and un-fuckable.
Anyways, I'm bored with you, LJ. You don't talk to me like you used to. I need someone with a heartbeat. Bye.
P.S. Please don't proofread this post. It's not my finest grammar.
Oh yeah, good news! After 10 days or so of having a defective left leg (see "Kyoto"), it's finally showing some signs of returning to (semi-)normalcy. I was really starting to worry, wracking my meager medical knowledge to try and determine what I'd done to myself. If I'd torn my muscle, it might take 2-4 weeks to heal. Separated a ligament? 1-2 months of agony. That numbness that I constantly feel, like part of my leg is perpetually asleep and in aching agony? Maybe that's nerve damage: permanent. Etc etc. Sure, I could still walk, and with a bit of mental fortitude against the pain, conceal my limp. But if it's permanent . . . heaven forbid!
Today, for the first time, there was no limp and no pain. To be honest, my knee still goes to 'yellow alert' occasionally, but it doesn't hit the panic button like it had been doing. I think I'll give it another week of light duty assignments. Then I'll try running again. I tried that last week to test myself and it simply didn't happen. Yes, mucho pain was to be had and even though I was willing to grit my teeth through that, there was still something PHYSICALLY preventing me from running. I might as well have had two peg legs at the Olympics' 100 meter dash. That's what got me worried, that I simply COULD NOT physically do this, despite all my bad-ass machismo.
So you can imagine what a huge relief it is to me to no longer be feeling that constant worrisome pain. I mean, I know it's cool for black dudes to walk with a limp, but for a white guy like me, that just makes me that much older and un-fuckable.
Anyways, I'm bored with you, LJ. You don't talk to me like you used to. I need someone with a heartbeat. Bye.
P.S. Please don't proofread this post. It's not my finest grammar.
